Alright... so i fight my way to the place i am today and this morning i went to CHALLENGE DAY at school. for those of you who might read this if there is one at your school GO! its fun and its a good way to get ur feelings out. but as i was saying... i fight for who i am and i totaly ruined my bad chick image today. I CRYED!!! of all the things that i could have done i cryed! so ya but it was still fun.
but i realized something to day... no matter how alone we feel we have options. we can live with it and end it with suicide, we can deal with it and find someone like us. cuz we're not always alone there IS ppl just like us just waiting to find someone just like them YOU. so if you were hurt and if your going threw a hard time DON'T do it alone cuz if you do it will be way harder than you want it to be.
i found two ppl today they went threw the same thing as me and are willing to help me. you know whats sad? they were there the whole time! those ppl are my bestfriends CINDY & MADI and i cryed into cidys chest for like 5 min i got makeup on her shirt and probibly a lil' snot to but still she let me and afterwards madi huged me and in all my life i have never had a more meaningful hug. i told them my story and i cryed a lil' more but im not weak for crying im just weak for doing it in public. but i love them and ill forever be greatful of them because with out them... i wouldnt be here to write. i would have cumited suicide or atempted to. they are my world and they are my LIFE they are the only things holding me back for now but soon... hopefuly... i wont need them to hold me back soon... hopefuly... ill be able to do it myself
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